I look so dumb...

If you're reading my blog, I appreciate it. Wheter you read it or not, nothing plays meaning...I mean it.

Pheww~~it took me so long to only update once for my blog...I thought I was able to focus at my work now...but what came up was really disappointing and nothing was up to my expectation...indeed, negative outcomes...

I was asked *I felt that I was forced to but I was wanting to try the challenge up* to join a club contest whereby you have to face many people from other clubs too, usually.

So I was spending much of my time preparing for this contest because it was due earlier than my coming assignment which I found that I have to send to a 'plagiarism check' server and get a certification of your assignment plagiarism rate.

Soon only I found out that I shouldn't have had my time for the contest...now I value the assignment as a high opportunity cost. It carries up to 20% of marks. Plus, it is not easy at all...

Owh well, I just had my contest done. I mean my turn...it was stupid, and I found myself offended. I was so naive and stupid to have prepared *at least I prepared* for the contest...and what the outcome was (not the result of the contest but the process of the game of audiences) 100% negatively proportional to my performance on the stage...

I feel so dumb and stupid and I agree on what Ah 9 said in the press conference *I was naive and childish on that moment*...now I feel how she felt...

I have made a resolution to myself...I will be serious in anything from now on...no play.

I hate that shit...he better disappeared from my sight...